Science Center

Finally got to go to the CT Science Center with my Aunt Jackie, Uncle John and cousins Abbie, and John. It was so fun. I literally love learning, that's why I miss school! Okay I don't miss school that much.... but learning is the key to life! I can't wait to go back soon!

Light dances in music and movement

This was the mind ball test. Who can relax their mind the most will have the ball come toward them. It was really hard! We all took a turn. Uncle John kept trying to mess us up! He's such a dad!

-Christina

Mhmm...

   Why can't I ever be happy, like really happy. Not the moment of happy from a joke... The real happy. That has nothing to do with anyone else but you. My life just sucks, it really does. Yes I know there are a lot of people, a lot, that have a terrible life, with no food or money. But when I sit here and tears fill my eyes, sometimes for no reason, I just wish that everything was different. I want to go away, away from here and away from my problems. Problems with family, friends, and life. I try and try and try, but nothing ever changes. I take medicines and I go to therapy. I've progressed in getting my life together. But I am still just me.

   It's funny, no one knows I feel like this. I can tell them, but no one really understands. You can say you do, or you feel the same way. But, unless are me you don't know nothing.  And never will.

   Sometimes I want to go away to some facility and just stay their my whole life. And not give a fudge about the world. I can't be in a relationship, cause that's always a temporary happiness, that I always revolve my whole life around, just to hold on to that feeling. But it's not permanent.

   I've shown a little of my crazy side once to my family, a slight mental breakdown, they just yelled at me to keep it together and didn't understand, that's how I really am in the inside, ALL THE TIME. If you saw how I was on the inside on the outside, I'd be a complete mess. People wouldn't talk to me or befriend me. They'd just think I was a freak. But I am not a freak, I'm a girl with terrible mental problems. That's what I am to me.

   But to everyone else, I'm just the nice girl, bubbly and sweet, not a care in the world. And I can always put a smile on your face.