The Hairy Little Princess.

I'm so worried about her lately. Nikita Marie hasn't been acting like herself. She's been a bad girl and running out of the yard, like everyday, when people are walking by and worse if they are with a dog. She will go up to the dog and be mean to them. She never would leave the yard before. I think it's cause she's getting really old. She's losing her marbles. She goes in the trash when she's hungry sometimes or doesn't come when we call her. She was the best dog ever, she use to always listen, we never needed a collar or leash for her. But lately we can't let her outside without watching her.

Also she seems sad lately. Her mother is gone forever. Mallissa, my stepsister is no longer with us, RIP. And Kita was her baby. Nikita always was so happy when Mallis' was around. And right after Mallissa's death Nikita was so lost and confused, she would go sit by her door. It was the saddest thing you'd ever see. Made me cry seeing her so sad, cause she's old we really worried about her, because it's true you can die from a broken heart.

I've taken over Kita for Mallis'. Making sure she sleeps with me and is loved all the time. I feed her and pet her belly and tell her she's beautiful, lile Mallissa did. And everyone in the house is doing their part too. Nikita is treated like royalty in this house. But I'm afraid she's just too old now, and I'm so scared of losing her.

I've never lost a dog in my own house before. I've had to give away my dog when I moved, but I was unaware of that till she was gone, I cried for months. And my aunt and uncle's dogs both passed, I grew up with them since I was a baby I knew Bud and J.D., I've slept in their cages when I was 3 because I loved them so much. When they died, not even a year apart when I was 16, It broke my heart and it still hurts to think about them. And now I have Nikita Marie, a 14 year old baby, whom I terrified of losing. I know she's old and has bad hips and is acting different and she'd be with her mommy, but it's so hard to lose her.

Rest In Peace to all the dogs that have been in my life that have passed. You are missed. And for the dogs in my life that are still here, may you live and be loved for as long as possible.