Merry Christmas!

How was everyone's Christmas?!

It was good, tough at first since Mallissa wasn't here... Mom had to donate her gifts cause they were still sitting in the closet. I wasn't sure how the morning would go, it was our first Christmas with both families together. But we had fun opening all our gifts. Mom's theme this year was room decor and bedding. She is so cute. Dina got colorful bohemian, I got indian/african hippie, Lisa got maroon colors cause that's what she likes. Nick got just random guy stuff. 

Lisa's decor

Basically all the decor was the same stuff but different. We each had a mirror and canvas and bedding but to our themes. Best Christmas gifts ever!

We went to Aunt Jackie's as we usually do. I love my family, it's always a good time when we get together. Plus they put Kramer in a santa suit! Adorable! 

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas,

Christina

Happy Birthday to me!

It's is my 19th birthdayy, YAY! Oh my goodness. My last year in the teen's, I'm going to be in my 20's next year! This is so crazy. I am getting so old, it seems as the years go by so fast. Well, my birthday dinner was so fun. I had a blast. I'm so glad everyone came and had a goodtime. Tonight I have a christmas party, but everyone will be wishing me a happy birthday so I can't wait to go!

Last night was so fun also, my sister, Dina, and I went to her friend's house for a game night. I had so much fun! We played catch phrase, my oh my, does it get intense! I think I did pretty good for the most part. Some players were better then others... hahah. I hope we have a game night again soon!

Okay I'm off. I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!!

My sister and I

our xmas card! hehe

Birthday Party

Hi everyone!

Gathered a few friends I don't get too see too often and went out to dinner for my birthday. We went to TGIF then headed back to the house to hang out and do birthday cake. It was fun to see everyone and catch up!

from the birthday girl,
Christina

I love getting all dressed up...

sometimes... haha

Tonight is my birthday dinner with some of my friends of women gender, my birthday is the 23rd, but everyone is always busy then so I'm celebrating is tonight! Hopefully everyone can come back to my house afterward for cake! I'm kind of nervous. I haven't hung out with girls in so long, I usually only leave the house when I go on a date, terrible. I know. I'm excited to reconnect with some girls though. Let's hope tonight goes well!

Things that really bug me, let me rant...

Cause ranting makes people feel better, right? I suppose.

1. People who think there all that, face it, your not. I know I'm not, but you don't get that you are not.
2. Not wanting a job, but wanting a job. I need it soon, gotta save up that money!
3. Guys, they are the most annoying people when it comes to love, but I hate girls, who does that leave me with? mhm. This is upsetting.
4. When you just want some cinnamelts from Mickey D's and you can't drive down the street to get it.
5. Speaking of which, not driving! That surely bugs me, will I ever learn?! Who knows, maybe I'm not meant to drive, do they hire free drivers for sweet girls like me? I wonder...
6. When getting older means... getting older.
7. I just want a best friend, girl, who is nice and not a backstabber... What's wrong with me that I can't keep a friend for long, their is just always something wrong with them. Ugh. How annoying is that!
8. Infommercials. And the fact that I stay up so late these days and nothing is on at that time.
9. Having metal problems. It really puts a bummer on life...
10. and lastly for today.. the fact my sister is in Boston and I am here, alone.

Sundayyy. My birthday dinner with friends of the women gender. I havn't seen most of them in a while. Come'on Christina lets get back in the social scene! I'm excited, but nervous. I'll try out my new handy dandy pills that make anxiety go away for a bit tonight and see if I'll want them for tomorrow.

oh and YES snow, beautiful snow is going to fall today/night. Maybe I'll take some new photos, flickr is a bit empty...

I hope you find happiness

Killing yourself will never be a solution to anything, promise me you will never do that to yourself no matter what you think, no matter how much you can't handle it, and even if you think you'll never be happy. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And you not only take your own life but you affect all the other people you know around you.

Rest In Peace

Mallissa Christine Cascone 12/5/89 - 12/9/09

Yesterday my step sister killed herself, thinking this was the way to end all her problems. She was wrong. But maybe she will finally be happy and at peace. Nothing anyone did could have made her happy. Its just a shocking thing to experience. Hearing it, I didn't even believe it. I thought it was another dramatic act like she always did. She had serious mental problems I couldn't begin to understand. And now I know all the hate and fights she had with me and my family or anyone for that matter were her own problems.

I just hate that the last time I saw her was when she was yelling about how she couldn't stand me and my family. When all along the only person she couldn't stand was herself. No matter what we did, we couldn't help her. This is what she wanted all this comotion before her death, the drama, this is who she was, no matter if we wanted to change her or if she did, that was her and that's how she was.

I know during summer we got along and became friends, then after the whole stealing my friend thing and all the drama she caused we stopped talking. But even though it's hard to take back all the anger I have for her, I undertstand where all that stuff was coming from. It was her mental illness that was taking over her. I'm glad to know I did have a few memories with her. I hope she is finally truley happy where ever she is now.

Looking up to where she wants to be

Over the summer we were weird lol

me, her, and the girl I babysit during summer

emergency emergency call the doctor

   Well last night was super fun! Not. haha. Around 12 at night I had a slight headache and was super tired, so I got in the bed with my sister to sleep [I was sleeping over my aunt's] and we were sitting their for a bit.
   I had a pain in my stomach yesterday and today, but it was just something I thought I could ignore, till last night around 12:30. I thought maybe I needed some tums, so I crawl out of the bed and try to walk to the bathroom to get some.
   To my surpirse the pain had gotten so bad I couldn't stand. I fell to the floor and tried to crawl my way their, but any movement or turn I made brought on the pain even more. My sister and aunt wanted to bring me to the ER, I tried to protest cause I don't to be dramatic but I caved and said okay.
   I crawled to the stairs but could NOT make it anymore. So I sat on the staircase in pain trying not to move, feeling nauseous. After about twenty minutes I got to the top and just laid on the floor near the dog bowls waiting for the ambulance to show up. When they arrived all I saw where feet as they asked me questions and checked my heart. I was dreading about how they were going to get me on a stretcher. I did not want to move.
So I got up in sat in a chair and then tried to walk as fast as I could to the front door to the stretcher, I get a shot in the ambulance and then I feel soo much better. By the time I'm at the hospital I already feel fine. Then I feel like it was all dramatic and I just want to go home.
   They thought is was my appendix and it might be, so we have to watch myself today and for a few days to see if the pain comes back. I realllllly hope it doesn't it hurt so bad!! Ugh so that was my night and after staying their till 5 in the am I was released.  What an annoying night and now I have holes and sticker marks all over my arms chest and legs. Great.

The Borrowers...

   No, not the awesome movie, the annoying people. Now that I live with my step cousin, she's big on sharing each others things, but...

   My number one pet peeve is people who borrow my things. I'm mean I'm not a rude person who doesn't share but I just don't like letting people use my things. I can't say no when they ask which drives me up a wall. I don't mind people who borrow something every once in a blue moon or on a special occasion, but people who keep taking your things everyday drives me insane!

   Being OCD makes this even more annoying. I like my shoes, nail polish, make up, dvds, and perfume organized a certain way. But when these people borrow things they don't put anything back where it goes!! How difficult is it to put it back exactly the way you first saw it? Really. Also sharing make up and earrings is gross, but I can't say no when they ask cause I feel like I can't.

   Also you can't borrow perfume, you use it and I don't get that back. I don't use my perfume everyday just when I'm going certain places, that way it lasts longer. But she uses mine everyday! I wish she would just get her own, also she's used my Chanel earrings for a special occasion but she still wears them everyday, I want them back. She also has my favorite purse but it's my summer purse so I'm not using it now, but I want it to stay nice for next summer. I hate confronting people but I want to so bad. She even has my sweatshirt which I don't want back now cause she already shrunk it in the dryer. I'm just so annoyed. I'm lucky all the people in this house are twigs so I don't have to worry about most of my clothes cause I'm more curvy and their more boyish figures. If they shared my clothes too, I think I'd have a heart attack.

   And I take pride in keeping my shoes nice, I mean there not like crazy clean, but I don't want all my expensive shoes getting ruined when they go to parties and get wasted. I don't want beer all over them! I paid for them and I like to keep them nice. And I have this thing were when you wear a shoe it molds on the bottom to your foot, and if someone else wheres them it makes them weird. I know I'm strange but I don't want anyone using my stuff.

   It's not like I borrow anything of theirs. No shoes, jewelry, perfume, make up, nothing.  If I don't have something, that's it, I don't have it. I find something else to wear. And if I ever do borrow something I bring it back as soon as I'm done and I treat it with respect when in my possession. I either give it directly to the person or put it back exactly wear I got it.

   So lesson learned to the borrows, don't borrow every 5 seconds, the person letting you really does mind if you do! Borrow only when very important.


Okay rant over,
Christina